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It’s weekend here in Jeddah and I am so bored. So in order to keep myself busy (OK I know that I have to finish my technical write up) I install this software, from flykiteOSX. So whut the hell is FlykiteOSX?

Taken from the website

“FlyakiteOSX is a transformation pack. It will transform the look of an ordinary Windows XP+ system to resemble the look of Mac OS X. The installer simply automates the process of replacing critical system files, setting registry tweaks, and installing extras such as cursors, sounds, visual styles, etc. FlyakiteOSX DOES NOT contain any spyware or ad-ware of any kind. All files needed for FlyakiteOSX are stored in the Windows directory in a folder named ‘FlyakiteOSX’ that is hidden by default. All registry values for FlyakiteOSX are written to HKEY_LOCAL_MACHINE\Software\FlyakiteOSX.”

You can see the screenshot here, and download the application here.

and here is the screenshot of my laptop

There you’re, if u r bored like me, why don’t u install this apps? But I have to warn you that I will not be held responsible for any damage/performance disruption/instability of the OS for installing the application. Install it at your own risk but so far my laptop is working just fine.

This is Nur Iman Nadhirah. Hmm even though 8th August is not that far but I miss wifey, the kids so much

Alhamdulillah, I managed to perform umrah for the second time. A very humble and touching experience to be at the place where every muslimin and muslimat dream of. I am grateful for that. A good time to forget all the forensic etc matters at the office. And with God willing, I experienced raining in Mekah. So far after near one month in Jeddah, rain is very scarce but like my father said in his sms, I was chosen to experience this. There are lots of astonishing experience here in Mekah which I dun think I able to describe here in my blog. One thing for sure, you have to go there and experience these yourself. Now I know where many ppl who have been to Masjidil Haram, always thinking of coming back there. Same here.

It’s raining and ppl scramble for shelter

he loves rain

Heavy downpour

I tell you john

Can you believe that this thing happen in Mekah. “Kun faya Kun”

You can see my other Mekah’s pictures at my picture gallery here

p/s: Sorry there’re lack of technical postings rite now. I’m lil bit lazy too occupied with the works in hand (and I am running out of hand) Too many pending things need to be done and both me and GigCo need to do preliminary forensic activities.

Heck, I can’t even managed to finish of my technical write-up.

My hand is quite full here. We have new thing that required our attention at most, meaning I’ve stopped writing reports for quite a while. Actually we have to perform initial incident response and prelimenary e-forensic (I’d rather call it information gathering). Anyway wifey give me an sms message that I dreaded most. She has to be warded today and eventhough it is hard for me to take it but Alhamdulillah, she is only warded because of her flu and cough (which never stops since last 2 weeks even tho with the assistance of the medication given by doctors and her gynae).

I guess this week is not a good week either for us (here in Jeddah) in term of work as well as for me personally. It really pains me to imagine that wifey has to be warded for a few days, alone by herself and I know even tho she didn’t admit it, no matter how many times she said that it’s ok for her, my presence beside her is what she need most.

I always said that before I do anything, before I take any actions, before I make my decision, I will try my best to ensure that my actions are the best for me and my family. I always told wifey that I have no regrets in doing all those things in the past. For once, I do feel that I am wrong. I do feel guilty that I left her in that condition.

To wifey, I am so sorry and Yes, I do regret that now.

Is there any problem producing that damned daily reports? I’ve sent the template and just fill the damned info. Don’t know how to use the application? Then get your lazy fucking ass to move and LEARN that damned thing!! I dun like the idea of using THAT application either but currently we are using it for our CLIENT and like it or not, you have to learn.

Sorry for that words but I just can’t simply hide or surpress my frustration, anger, disappoinment etc. Please dun call yourself a Network security analyst if you can’t even differentiate between connection-oriented or connectionless, or dun even have the fucking idea what is the tcp handshake is all about.

Even I sometimes feel embarrass to call myself a network security analyst with the knowledge that i have. I try my best to improve my knowledge to justify my position. Watching /downloading the fucking movie all fucking day wont help you either.

For God sake get all of your ASS moving and give me the fucking simple daily report!!!!!!!!

p/s: I know the report is not officially required yet until the monitoring phase. But when you want to start learning how to do it? The moment everything started?

Again, sorry for the wordings..

Wifey sent a recordin of Iman saying something to me and ask me to identify what is she trying to say to me. After a while I gave up and wifey told me that Iman is saying,

“Alo papa botak.”

Yeah I’ve cut my hair to No.1 cut after performing Umrah last week. Can you hear it?

http://www.hazrulnz.net/pics/alo_papa_botak.amr

Miss them

Wifey informed me that my sister-in-law created a father’s day card for my father, my brother(her hubby) and me. She uploaded the card at her fotopages. So I browse to her fotopages, and it is nice to see someone created that specially for us. My sister-in-law also loved to upload the pictures of what she cooked every single meal for ever single day. Being here far away from home, looking at the pictures makes me hungry .

But when I click on the picture to see it in full size;

Unbelievable…

p/s: Wifey just informed me that my youngest daughter, Iman is sick. It makes me feel like want to fly back home. I wish I could be there to help wifey. Sometimes I do feel guily of leaving wifey to do everything by her own. yes we do have a maid but still for a woman who has a twin in her womb, she will be struggling to cope with all the daily task. I wish I could be there..

I missed wifey, my kids so much. Still haven’t got the number here. After been to foreign country, to be honest and I have to admit, our country either in sense of culture or hospitality is the best. Anyway need to put the emotions behind and get the job done. Need to do some modifications on the reports and everything.

Missed wifey and my kids.

I am surprised..

Today is our 3rd Anniversary meaning I’ve been a husband (and also a father) for good 3 years already. It’s an incredible journey which has a fair share of bitter sweet memories. We have our share of quarrels, disagreement, burst of angers but most of the time misunderstood each other. I’ve learn many things from this marriage life.

I’ve learned to use my brain judgement instead of my temperamental heart. I’ve learned that admitting mistakes are not a bad thing to do, backing off from heated argument can cool things down (of cause having heated arguments at first place are not a good move). I’ve learned the new meaning of love and responsibilities and of cause I’ve learned to understand, accept and tolerate to my other half needs and conditions. These are the few among many things that educate me along these years.

Any changes? I do still call wifey “yang” the short form of “sayang” even in front of my parents or my in-laws. I still in the process of understanding wifey’s behaviour/ emotions/ feelings better(:D), wifey still the best person in surprise department where I am still sucks at it (wifey always successfully guessed my “surprise” events or presents and I can see that she pretends to be surprised for the sake of saving my face ). I am still sucks in buying groceries or our children clothes (How do I know the different between “8″ and “6″ sized shirts). I’m still the one who do the thinking dept and wifey is the one who keeps pushing me to get thing done (She always said that I’ll gonna take few centuries to get thing done. I guess sometimes I do).

Anyway I am grateful and feel lucky to have a good friend, an attentive listener, a good motivator, a wonderful mother and a loveable person as my wife. Nothing in these 3 years of my life that I would change and like what I always tell wifey,

“No regrets”

update : Wifey gave me a surprise anniversary gift. An engraved parker pen for my usage. I know she up to something when she asked me not to follow her buying things (strange hehehe). Anyway thank you my dear. I do feel guilty for not giving her anything tho.

nice eh? I am lucky