Ayoi’s

Well actually D-Day plus One is yesterday. D-Day = the day that when we need to do all the things by ourselves as the maid decided to leave. As I am the one who volunteered to stay at home and take care all the kids while wifey fulfilling her appointments. I have to admit it’s quite awkward for me at first but as the day progressed, I’m getting used to all the house chores even though the house usually filled with shouting from me, the twins and of cause their usual victim, Iman.

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It seems that the last entry of this blog is on 17th August 2009, my twin’s 2nd birthday. To be honest, it’s not that I abandon this blog all together, I have few drafts that are still lacking the final touch (or the final words). Some of the drafts are interesting posts (at that time) which I think quite “basi” already for now. Some of those are lame postings which I rightly remove from the draft folder hehehe. Maybe I could inject some new elements on the “basi” ones..Maybe..

To be frank, overall I’m in the stage of overcoming some tests that the God has given to me. Some of the tests are quite challenging that I think without the support of my loved ones, I might suffer what I call mental break down. Some times I do feel like I want to scream at the top of my lung but after thinking about the consequence and the benefits of doing it, I’ve decided against doing that. Yeah I do feel that I’ve reached the limit many times.

Last two days, my maid decided to leave us. She just pack her things, leave the twins and then she left. Fortunately she still has the decency to sms wifey and asked her to come home as soon as possible because the twins were at home alone. So wifey called me, fetched me from the office, went back to the house and gladly and gratefully to see the twins happily playing within the house compound. Fortunately the neighbour’s maid was there to accompany them and it seems that Nisha also skipped her school. I take it as it’s another test for me and honestly this is the least challenging compared to others.

I know that this maid is going to leave us someday and to be honest I do not have the feeling to retain her as well especially after the case of Iman’s hand poured with hot boiled water. She told us that Iman was playing with the boiler but all the post incident events indicate that she was hiding something.

Nevermind… For all the things that happened to me and my family, I know that maybe in the future the God will reward us with something that beyond our imagination. Who knows rite

Oh yeah.. Back in May 2008, I had one minor surgery on my forehead to remove one small lump that will spurt blood on the slightest touch. Ok not spurting blood but it will bleed and took some time to stop. In fact there was one time that I’ve spent around 15 to 20 minutes in the toilet watching the blood dripping into the toilet bowl (OK I just wanna test how long it would take for the bleeding to stop). So I’ve decided for that lump to be surgically removed.

Before operation. Take note on the small "lump" above my left eyebrow

Of cause for every surgery will leave you one nice scar. For me as I had approx. 11 stitches on my forehead and at that time I do feel like Frankenstein. I have to admit that whenever I look at the mirror every morning either for brushing my teeth or trimming my beards, sometimes I did cover the surgery wound with my hand.

Immediately after the operation.. Still in "lalok" stage

Soon after the stitches were removed, it leaves one nice long trench on my forehead and I did notice that my eyebrows were not aligned to each other. My left eyebrow was lil bit higher than the right one (thank God that my eyes are still in its original place hehehe). Well it was lil bit awkward when the first thing that people that I met fixed their eyes on  or asking was my scar.

“You had a fight kah?”

“You had a gang fight eh?”

“Your twins are soo naughty eh?”

“You just upgrade your memory?” -> one of my colleagues question..

But as the time passed by, I’m getting used to that kind of questions (minus the last one) as for me nothing will change lor and from time to time I just simply ignore the existence of that scar.

Until one fine day when wifey approach me and said,

“You already know that my stretch marks mostly gone rite?”

“Yeah.. It’s nice to actually feel that I’m touching the stomach instead of car tyre surface  whenever I touch your stomach.”

“Good. Now lets try on your operation scar.”

“What? Later on lah.. I’m watching Sopranos now and I’ll do it later. Can?”

“Just sit quietly and let me do on your operation scar.”

“Later lah..”

“Quiet and watch your Sopranos.”

“Err OK”

And that’s the start of everything. My scar really lighten up and on the next time, it’s me who asking wifey,

“Where’s your machine eh? Err I want to do on my scar.”

And after few times this is the result.

Frankenstein

Lighten up lil bit

Better?

no comment

Cool eh?

It seems that my previous posting did offend some people. I want to take this opportunity to say sorry to whoever offended either directly or indirectly by that post and there are no malicious intentions in it. As most of the people in this particular industry I can call them as my friends and professional colleagues. But with that in mind, these people also entitled for their comments, views and opinions.

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Nowadays I’ve heard many rumours.. Some of them are totally bullshit and crap, some of them could perform some doubt injection in your confidence and some of them, unfortunately totally shaken you up.. I wish I could close my ears and ignore all these rumours..

For the first time in my life, I do feel lil bit insecure…

Yup… I’m back at my parents’ house in Kuantan. Reached here last Saturday and at that time really looking forward spending some relaxing time here. But we can only plan as God always has something else planned for us right? So that’s what happened on the first night spent without wifey around. It seems that all of us missed to be here in Kuantan so my kids spent most of their time here eating literally everything (including the twins as well). As the result? I barely get any sleep last nite as Nisha, Adam and Ariff decided that it was the good time to test their father’s patience and endurance by ejecting most of the content of the stomach via mouth in series of involuntary spasmic movements. In fact I smelled like those content of the stomach

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I’ll be on leave from 15th December until 26th December 2008. That means I will have two nice work free weeks to spend with the kids and perhaps find some time for myself as well. There are many things that I’ve plan in my head on what I’m gonna do (besides looking after the kids). Maybe I could finish off any pending projects that I had like the assembly thingy, the analyst guidelines, malware thingy as well, and yeah my unit plan for next year. So, I’m looking forward for those nice, peaceful, works free holiday.

I’m planning to take a long leave (depends on how many annual leave that I have left for this year) next month. It is better for me to take what ever leave balance that I have because at the end of the day, I can only take 5 days of my annual leave to next year. Last year, I think I had few days of annual leave wasted just like that and I wont let that happen this year… So what am I going to do during those “holiday”?

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2008 near its end. As usual during this period, I always looked back and try to find any milestone achievement for this year. Find any aspects that I can and must improve, acknowledge on the mistakes done or in other words, I’ll performed the “Lesson learned” analysis on myself. So far I am so grateful to my Maker for helping me achieve most of my goals of joining this company and involving in this industry or field. I have no complaints, no regrets but perhaps some disappointment as well. Well like what people said, you just can’t have it all or the term that I’ve learned in my Economic class back in 90s, “The next best alternative forgone.”

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