How to raise u children eh? What are the criteria taken into consideration? Parenting books? Let my wife read it (she did not btw). The only model or example that I can look upon is my parent and definitely my father. He is my idol, my inspiration, my role model, my everything. He’s a strict person, very conservative in certain matters but surprisingly very open minded(as later I discovered). He emphasis on manners, religion and dicipline as the most important things in life. Respect the elders (where I found out very handy during my mckk years) in terms of language used, tone, eye contact, etc. Dicipline is important in every aspect in life. Most of the successful people shares one common trait between them; Dicipline. I kinda lack of it (admit la) and see what happen to me. Well so far my brothers and sister successfully pursuing what they’ve dream of and they kinda better in this aspect than me. I prefer to do things my way.

I’m kinda strict with my children (of cause to Nisha lah. Iman only 2 months plus). Well she was raised by her ma tok (my wife’s mother) so sort of spoilt. Hmm btw there’re issues that I think I dun have to post it here. To sum things up is that I dun want Nisha to be influenced by negative things. So far it seems like those negative elements had penetrated her and there’re some traits that I really dun like. Perhaps that I’m too conservative but there are things that I can’t tolerate. Manners, Religion, Dicipline ( Now I do sound like my father)

Being a father makes me realize and understand most of the things that my father tought us and the reasons why he done something that I felt at that time kinda illogical towards his children. I’m still in learning process, apprentice. Now I know laa abah and perhaps someday I manage to look in this matter from his eyes and tell my children “One day you will understand”

Just bought Victoria’s Secret “Secret Crush” body splash for my beloved wife. At first I thought I want to keep it secret from her till our anniversary at the end of this month. But dang, even though my work revolves around secrecy and confidentiality, my itchy fingers can’t stop SMSing her. Btw I still have few things in my mind to surprise her on our anniversary day. Hehehe let her have this false sense of confident of what to expect for her present

Have to keep on reminding myself to stop giving her clues. She’s very good at digging secrets eh. Hmm now need to buy some masking tape…

Ahh, this coming month (aprox. another 3 weeks!) I have to sit for RHCE certification exam. Done some googling and discovered that the review of this certification is not that convincing. I dun mean that it’s not a good cert but the exam is damn difficult. To add pressure to this small head is that no matter whether I pass or not, I will be bonded to the company for 1 year. So better to get the cert then bonded for 1 year instead of stuck with this company for nothing. Last saturday I’ve successfully printed 147 pages RHCE study guide + written exam guide for my reference. Thankfully there’s still enuff paper left in the printer tray for other to use hehehehe. Hmm I just dun know how am I gonna face this exam. I took my last exam for Malaysian Taxation paper (ICSA) around 1998. Hehehe but then I have no other worries besides my exam subjects. Now? Lol, too many things in my mind and requires my attention. My work, my wife, my family, the bills, car, house etc. and now plus one more, RHCE. Heheheeh. Like it or not, I have to recall back my last-minute-study self and do some hands on practice ( Sorry my dear but it seems we have to sacrifice the compaq for my RHCE)

Being a father is not an easy task. But if you have a step daughter and a daughter, it is one hell challenging task physically and emotionally. I thought I’ve prepared to be a father as when I married to my wife, not only just being her husband but also the father of her daughter. At that moment everything went just fine. Just let the child takes her time to know me, comfortable to have me around and then everything is OK. Btw I do love this child as she doesnt get the love of her real irresponsible father and I know and admit that the love that I give to her will not be the same as the real father. That is a fact.
But when Nur Iman was born last March, it’s kinda difficult for me to balance my feeling towards my step daughter and my daughter. Sometimes I do hate to have this kind of feelings and trust me, I really want to give all my love to both of them equally and without prejudice. Easy said than done eh? Well there’s no try and error here. Any wrong judgement from my side will have a big impact on their future, and there will be no Donald Trump to fire me or there is no such thing as re install option in this matter.

Thankfully I have a wife who keeps on reminding me on my responsibilities toward my family especially towards my children (plus her needs of shopping ). Check and balance eh So far everything is running smoothly and I thank God for that.

Old or young? Jeez. One more year and I’m gonna reach that magic number. Three zero. hehehehe. Well this morning jaja did ask me how do I feel to be in the end of my 20s. To be honest there’s nothing different. Everything is the same. I still wake up in the morning, wait till my wife finish wear her clothes and make up, then took both of my daughters, Iman and Nisha to the babysitter, then straight to Putrajaya while bitching about the traffic, the road hoggers, and of cause hearing my wife mumbling about the parking space and the famous bad traffic at the Sunway bridge. (I almost forgot about my birthday today till my wife gave one nice morning kiss for my birthday gift)

So is there any different with my other days? Nahh.. Only I ate a lot today. Perhaps due to my last nite activities LoL.. I dun have to elaborate here. Besides my wife keeps on teasing me how old I am compared to her, everything seems to be normal. So there’s nothing to be shout about, age is only a number that indicates that how long we’ve been on this planet rite? No big deal.