General @ 17 May 2005 03:41 pm by ayoi
Being a father is not an easy task. But if you have a step daughter and a daughter, it is one hell challenging task physically and emotionally. I thought I’ve prepared to be a father as when I married to my wife, not only just being her husband but also the father of her daughter. At that moment everything went just fine. Just let the child takes her time to know me, comfortable to have me around and then everything is OK. Btw I do love this child as she doesnt get the love of her real irresponsible father and I know and admit that the love that I give to her will not be the same as the real father. That is a fact.
But when Nur Iman was born last March, it’s kinda difficult for me to balance my feeling towards my step daughter and my daughter. Sometimes I do hate to have this kind of feelings and trust me, I really want to give all my love to both of them equally and without prejudice. Easy said than done eh? Well there’s no try and error here. Any wrong judgement from my side will have a big impact on their future, and there will be no Donald Trump to fire me or there is no such thing as re install option in this matter.
Thankfully I have a wife who keeps on reminding me on my responsibilities toward my family especially towards my children (plus her needs of shopping 
). Check and balance eh 
So far everything is running smoothly and I thank God for that.
